Tonight I had to be a protective momma. Tonight I am not sure if there was evidence of the God whom I love in me...and my heart is just mad right now. It is just after 1:00 in the morning at this moment and I won't be able to sleep tonight. Just with in the last hour Megan came in to my room and woke me up. She said it sounded like someone was throwing small rocks at her window. I came out to her room. I heard it too. I looked out her window in to the dark and couldn't see anything. And then I heard a slight knock. Megan and I went in to the living room and I called 911. Time seemed to be going in slow motion. We kept hearing the noises outside. It then woke up Madie. Someone was knocking on her window now. So we woke up Jack because his window is right there and we didn't know what to do. We don't know anyone who would ever do that. I was scared. There was so much fear in me at that moment. Jack's whole body was shaking and he was scared. The police still weren't here so I called 911 again. And then I called my neighbor, but they didn't answer.
The police finally came and within 5 minutes of looking around our house they knocked on our door. He held up someones driver's license. It was Megan's old boyfriend from high school and two of his friends. She has had her number changed to stop him from calling. She has told him to leave her alone. He is 21 years old...He said he just wanted to talk to her.
I asked the police if I could go talk to him...I was so mad. Literally...I wanted to hit him. He scared Jack so much. In fact right now both he and Madie are still awake...He scared my whole family.
I told this boy of 21...in a very loud and firm voice...what he did to my other kids as a result of this...I told him never to come back again...I told him the affect he had on my whole family and the fear he has now placed in my son. I told him everyone was now awake and we had school and work. I told him I could have woke up my neighbors and affected there family as well if they would have answered their phone when I called. I told him I was sorry he missed her, but he needed to leave her alone. I was so mad...I don't know if any Godly features came out of me at all. I wasn't forgiving in my voice. I was so mad. He told me he would make it up to us...and I said he just needed to stay away from our house. I am sure I scared him....I was a protective momma...
Did I mention I was so mad...and I am so mad...and I can't sleep...and either can the kids...and I have a job in the morning...I really was so scared. And it was Joe...and his two friends...and I reamed them up one side and then the other. I stood out side in my pajamas, hoodie sweatshirt, unbrushed hair and my black slippers and leaned in to their car window and the protective mother in me just came out and I was mad.
I should have stopped and asked him if I could pray for him. I could have introduced Jesus to him. But I didn't do that. I didn't share my faith or my love of my God...I just got mad. I wished I would have taken the opportunity to listen to the Holy Spirit, but I let me anger cloud all of my thoughts. Now...where he could have known who he could turn to, he now feels worse about himself and I didn't witness to him. Lord, please forgive me.
I just had to process all of that....
Praise Jesus that it was just Joe...and that we are safe. Praise God for policemen and 911. Praise God that He never leaves us or forsakes us.
Please forgive me Lord if I said anything that was not glorifying to you. I was just so mad...
Thanks for listening to me. I think I will have some tea, open God's Word and pray over our home....
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